I sit on my bed with my face in my hands and do nothing but weep. Cry for the pain, frustration, anger and hate that has built up inside me over the past couple of years. Despite my will to admit this every one of my relationships has contributed to how I love today. I push away great people for the sake of not wanting to hurt myself or others, but needless to say I have damaged their beliefs of what it means to have a great partner.
Truthfully, if I can rewind the time and make the decision to be alone I would. It should never be a joke to play with people's emotions especially when you allow them to fall in so deep, or to manipulate their thoughts and hearts into wanting you more when in reality you want them to let go. Many times you wish to remove the blind folds from their faces and the lies written on their hearts so they can stop treating you like you're this perfect saint here to save them of their ridicule. And, even though you may share similar stories there still lies a difference that you remain bitter while they try to confine and find a cure in you.
So when is it ok to rebound and abuse another innocent person? Never, because no one deserves the baggage. No one asks to be in that position and no one wishes to comprise with your faults.
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