Monday, January 3, 2011

Double Blog

I haven't blogged in a while because I've been preoccupied with life's calling.  For the past 2 weeks there has been a lot of hassle with gathering gifts and putting together events in celebration of the holidays with family and friends.  When I think times like this I automatically envision a romantic setting because usually couples are doing the extreme to make their loved ones happy.  I must say though that relationships are by far the most costly things that can break your pockets.  If your not spending it on a gift your spending it on a date.  However, its never about the money, its more the anticipation of seeing the surprise on your loved ones face when you do something they least expect or when you capture that smile on their face that leaves warmth inside. I'm a very mushy person when it comes to things like that because I know how great of a feeling it is for someone to sweep you off your feet.

However, this season has been pretty shaky.  There has been a lot of emotions flying around that has questioned my stability and love.  I think I often fail with relationships because I point the finger too quickly and never look at my own faults.  Also, I am such a selfish person. As much as I hate saying that its so true, smh.  I never made a new year's resolution because I don't believe that the beginning of a new year should dictate your behavior, your reactions, or your will to change.  All of these things should be done because you want to and you see a need for improvement.  You realize the damage you have done and believe that change will make you into a better person.

In 2011 I plan on being the same me, just with a different outlook on loving someone.  I want to improve myself as a partner and lover. :)

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