Honeymoon

Every relationship has a honey moon stage, which usually occurs during the first few weeks or months of being in that "special" person's presence.  It's defined by the instant gratification of security, the arousal of new feelings that seem unbearable (in a good way of course) and the satisfaction of possibly finding someone that you feel compatible with.  During this stage your vulnerable like a deer in the headlights.  You see no flaws and are distracted by all the wonders that are presented to you.  You feel powerless and every moment is spent thinking about that person, wondering what they might be doing and if their thinking about you too...you know the little cute stuff.

You try so hard to impress them and hope that they don't pick out on your bad habits.  Most importantly you go out your way to be in tip top shape because you suspect that if you slip up they might just not want you anymore.  When it comes to your friends, you're always in a graceful mood which leaves them to question you about the mysterious person that has swayed you off your feet.

The honeymoon stage is the ultimate dream, the definition of the perfect relationship.  When it's over you question what happened and if your actions dictated the u-turn.  However, as you try to find the answers its important to realize that all good things come to an end.  You become comfortable in your relationship and most things you do to satisfy your partner you realize you no longer have to do.  Your emotions flip and you seek to find different ways to spice up your relationship OR you may lose the passion and the drive to want to sustain the relationship.  You may feel like the demands of being with that person is more than you can bare, but whatever it is you live and move on despite the end result.

Day 1

Last night I had an intervention and I came to the conclusion that I need to start a project that would consume my time and entertain an audience of people just like myself.  I questioned what people would be most interested in and it came to me by the drop of a dime that everyone experiences love, or so they think that they have.  Most of the time individuals confuse the nature of love with lust, especially when their carried away by the "perfection" of their partner.

Anyways as 2010 comes to a close and I reflect back on my relationship from its beginning stages till now I realize how self-absorbed I have been.  Seriously it truly is a blessing to see how people can cope with my attitude, selfishness, and unstable wants/needs.  I understand everyone is not perfect and of course humans are not meant to be, but for a split second I thought I was.  I thought I was able to conquer two masters at once...to juggle the sincerity of my relationship and linger between the devilish thoughts in mind of the possibilities that exist outside the realm of my relationship.

I played a culprit this year, a murderer of some one's heart and feelings, and "saint" in allowing people to actually believe that I was a good partner.  However,  for the remainder of this year and the new year I made an oath to do right and I plan on living by my word. Now, as I unravel my own psychological issues I want to address an array of problems/questions that suffice in relationships.  My ultimate goal is to use this blog as a column to express my feelings about the do's and don'ts of being in a relationship by using my own personal experiences, and possibly help those in need of advice.  So with that said let the blogging begin...